Maestro ka na! mabuhay!

Sigh! I'm beat. I'm soooo tired today I wish I was still the bum I used to be. Woke up with a splitting hangover, tried very hard to pull myself out of bed and into the shower. Had to rush to the office and type my prelim exams. God! and I freakin didn't know today was the deadline for that.
I always thought teaching came naturally and easily for me. Which is why it was a dream come true when I was invited to teach in behalf of Ms. Jo who was already leaving for the US 2 months ago. I didn't know yet that life as a teacher would never be a bed of roses. And even though I try so hard to always be objective by distancing myself from the drama that is college, I find myself caught up in its web and at the end of day, stressing over issues and students from whom I promised myself not to be affected by. I had to stay up late studying and preparing for the next day's class when, in fact, I never put so much effort in college. In college, my strategy was simply to stay afloat in class, not really learn about anything. Ultimately, since I figured I couldn't do it on my own, I looked for a bestfriend (Zaw, wink wink) and through our harmonious and symbiotic relationship I managed to pass and graduate.
Unfortunately, now it's all different. I am currently relearning things I should have already learnt in college. I am reding books I've never heard of before. Some things my brain automatically rejected before are starting to sink in to my conciousness and hopefully I am delivering it too to my kids, who for now I assume, are just trying to stay afloat just like me.
Zaw thought it ironic to find me studying. She told me you never studied before for your own grades and now you are studying for the grades of other people. Well said. But I have no choice. This is my dream. Albeit a shallow one, at least I'm living it. Kudos to myself. And to all those people living their own simple and shallow dreams.